Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Most people think that triggers are events from the past. Rarely, do we associate people as triggers. I met my trigger. Every time I see this trigger it brings back memories from my past so vividly, it feels as if I am reliving the past all over again. I have learned that sometimes you have to do what is best for you regardless of who it hurts. So, I have decided to move away. To get a fresh start to let myself heal from the past. What, saddens me the most is that I was never met much to my trigger. The concern was just a facade. It would have been nice for my trigger to care. But all my trigger could muster was concern. So, this is goodbye..... "Never allow someone else's comfort to ruin your happiness" TW
Saturday, February 11, 2012
So, it has been a while since I blogged. I have so much to say but I, will contain my excitement and concentrate on the one that sheds the most light. We as people are blind to so many issues in the world and our lives. If you have been reading my blogs you know that I have been struggling with a few issues. Sometimes, you have to sit down and simply listen, reflect, and forgive. I came to the revelation that often times we subject ourselves to blindness. We do this by making excuses and compromises. Those nagging thoughts or that gut feeling that hits you so hard, you have to take a seat to catch your breath. Thats your third-eye also known as intuition. We ignore our third-eye often refusing to acknowledge its presence. When it seems as if your world is spinning out of control and you are crying yourself to sleep and back awake. Wondering, when did life become so damn difficult. You look around and see the upheaval you have brought into your life. Asking, yourself why, no one told you what was going on. But, why would you need someone to tell you what you already knew, had you taken the time to listen to your third eye-intuition. Why, would you listen to someone else when clearly you do not trust yourself to know whats best for you. We could avoid so much unnecessary hurt if we just trust our third eye-intuition. I finally just stopped and listened all my hurt and pain over the past few months could have been avoided had I listened. Instead making excuses and compromises. I have been reflecting my life these past few months. I finally saw what my third-eye has been trying desperately to show me that I am worth so much more than what has been offered to me. That stained glass window that I created in my mind that I thought was so beautiful, wasn't actually stained at all it was dirt. So, I ask you are you going to continue to look through windows that appear to be beautifully stained. Ignoring the third-eye that is telling you that window isn't worth looking through, or will you look beyond that window to what is for you.... "Sometimes, the best things in life, are not what we want but what NEED"...TW
Thursday, January 12, 2012
I know it has a been a short interlude since I have last written. I wanted to take the time to truly apply the lessons I have learned since I have been doing my "A Better You " campaign. At first I will admit I became frustrated because it felt like. When I accomplished dealing with one lesson I would fail another. But, as I took a moment to reflect I realized that even Masters are constantly learning new ways to become a master at there particular craft. They to are constantly tested on whether they should or should not be at the top of their field. So, I decided that I would not allow myself to wallow in the mistakes that I have made. I will however, continue to forge ahead with conquering my fears. I have accepted that there will always be a bump along the way in life's journey. But it is up to you whether you decide to stop traveling or continue regardless of what may lye ahead. I used to be so critical of myself because I felt that I should be much further than I am on my journey of "A Better You". But I realized that it does not matter how long you have been on the journey, it only matters that you did not stop traveling. You kept moving even when the bumps in the road became harder to cross. So, rejoice in knowing that you are not where you used to be. "Inventions were accomplished by people who were willing to fail repeatedly in the past to become successful today" ..TW
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Today, was a easier than last few days. I guess more so because I know who is for me and whom are against me. I had no idea what I was going to work on for my "A Better You" campaign. But I was a awoken by the sounds of two consenting adults. I immediately, wanted to break down and cry my heart out. Because, once again this person is showing me just how much of a friend I am. By throwing his relationship in my face. I quickly dressed for work and left feeling somewhat wounded and broken. I sat in my car several minutes comforting myself. Telling myself do not cry over someone that does not have the capacity to care for you. I told myself that it would be a cry-free day. I cried later on but I was extremely proud of myself for the self-control I used. Later, I tried to talk to this person and tell him that I felt disrespected but he refused to listen. Once again, I was extremely proud of myself for the self-control I used. I didn't argue nor did I cry. Even, when he tried to be mean I held my tongue and walked away. So, although I cried today I still accomplished my goal of a cry-free day. I didn't allow myself to cry all day over situations I have no control over. I am learning every day that some people just do not care. So, I will end with saying this "Kindness is perhaps a commodity that some people will leave on the shelf".. TW
Monday, January 2, 2012
Today, was my second day of my "A Better You" campaign. I told myself if I did not have anything nice or useful to say. I would not say anything. I was quiet for a good part of the day. There were moments when I know I should have spoken but I held my counsel. I think or rather I know I have a gift for knowing useful information. I kind of feel like me giving out advice and information cost me something I wanted. And now perhaps I'm afraid that it could happen again. So, I have been hoarding useful advice and information that could help people. But I'm going to pray myself through it. Other, than that today has been great. I'm feeling good about my "A Better You" campaign.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Today, was simply one of those days that you can not put a name to. Today, officially started my "A Better You" campaign. I awoke early dressed quickly and left the house. I walked for four hours at the park. No, technology to keep me motivated just me and my thoughts. I pondered, wondered, and deconstructed over my past actions. My goal was to pick one thing I could change immediately. So, I pondered, wondered some more and then it hit me. I would do everything by myself today no asking friends to accompany anywhere today. I went to the movies and saw MIP2- alone. I did not want to go but at the same time I did not want to sit in the house and let my thoughts reason me into doing something foolish. I found that it was not so bad although there were moments old memories would tried to appear. I repeated to myself "Let It Go". Tomorrow, will be a new day which means a new challenge. I'm excited for whats to come until tomorrow campaign For A Better You..