Last night was the first of four sessions in a teleseminar I am currently attending. At, first I was overwhelmed at the amount of information that was being given. (Until, I get permission I will not state the speakers name.) I honestly was ready to give up. That is until the speaker made a statement that literally made me stop my mental complaining. For the rest of the seminar I was on auto pilot my mind wanted desparately to deconstruct her statement. I have thought about that statement off and on for hours today. I finally feel comfortable enough to share my thoughts on the subject.
For as long as I can remember I have lived inside my mind. It is where I am most comfortable. Everything must be thought out in my mind first. If my minds eye could not see it then it was unfathomable. For most of my life I have felt inadequate and awkward. I have scars that are visbly hidden with dry humor, quick wit, and a who cares adittude. I have failed at more things than I care to remember. I preferred to keep my failures to myself. I was to ashamed to let anyone in to comfort me. I knew that there was a part of me that wanted to give my failures a voice. Up until I heard that statement I was very limted on who knew my failures. I now realize how powerful a failure can be to someone that may be heading in the very direction I took. By giving my failures a voice I allow myself to heal. To every person that is sitting at home struggling with a failure of some sort. Stop allowing it to fester. For several weeks I have been meeting women that needed to hear about my failures. And for several weeks I have been fighting with myself on whether I would allow someone to know about the failures I have endured. I decided today that my failures will become someone elses victory. From that one statement I have healed so much by just allowing my life lessons to become someones guide book. When I think back to the past I realize that the failures I have endured have made me a stronger person. So, I will say this and be done for the night. "True success comes not from succeeding at be being the best. But recongnizing that failure was a necessary step to success."...TW