Who's Pulling Your Puppet Strings- Assistance or Hindrance?

I realized about a week ago I have very few friends.  I sat down to dig deeper into my memories of yester-years to reflect on the friendships I used to have.  I realized as I matured my choice in friends did not.  I looked at the people I gravitated to and I was shocked at what I was drawn to.  The past few years I can say I have had only two friends.  It took for me to experience a low point in my life to realize who my true friends were.  It hurt me deeply to know that the people I would willingly give my last too. Were the ones pulling the strings on  my puppet.  It has made me very distrustful of peoples motives.  It has taken a long time for me to really notice the link between reflection and perception.  I used to be friends with people that did not have the same values and morals that I held.  I would constantly say when people asked me. Why I could associate with such people.  I remember saying "what they do is their business and has no reflection on me."  People perceive you to be a certain way if they have meet someone you associate with.  Regardless, if you want to admit it or not our friends are reflections of us.  I want to be successful.  So for me I know that a big part of success is to surround yourself with positivity.  I refuse to be friends with someone that is hindering me.  Hinder is a obstacle or impediment.  Sometimes our associates, families, and friends can become a hindrance to us.  We exert so much energy into holding onto relationships that are dead weight we often sink ourselves.  I have learned to ask myself is this person a assistance or a hindrance to me.  It is so easy to be negative but it is often a daily up hill battle to be positive.   I prefer to surround myself around those that have similar values and morals as I do.  Positivity, is a assistance everyone could use more of.  Ask yourself this do I currently hold relationships with people that are hindering me?  Am I a hindrance in my relationships?

Failures Are Important To Someone

Last night was the first of four sessions in a teleseminar I am currently attending.  At, first I was overwhelmed at the amount of information that was being given. (Until, I get permission I will not state the speakers name.)  I honestly was ready to give up. That is until the speaker made a statement that literally made me stop my mental complaining.  For the rest of the seminar I was on auto pilot my mind wanted desparately to deconstruct her statement.  I have thought about that statement off and on for hours today.  I finally feel comfortable enough to share my thoughts on the subject.
     For as long as I can remember I have lived inside my mind. It is where I am most comfortable. Everything must be thought out in my mind first. If my minds eye could not see it then it was unfathomable.  For most of my life I have felt inadequate and awkward. I have scars that are visbly  hidden with dry humor, quick wit, and a who cares adittude. I have failed at more things than I care to remember. I preferred to keep my failures to myself. I was to ashamed to let anyone in to comfort me. I knew that there was a part of me that wanted to give my failures a voice. Up until I heard that statement I was very limted on who knew my failures.  I now realize how powerful a failure can be to someone that may be heading in the very direction I took.  By giving my failures a voice I allow myself to heal. To every person that is sitting at home struggling with a failure of some sort. Stop allowing it to fester. For several weeks I have been meeting women that needed to hear about my failures. And for several weeks I have been fighting with myself on whether I would allow someone to know about the failures I have endured.  I decided today that my failures will become someone elses victory.  From that one statement I have healed so  much by just allowing my life lessons to become someones guide book. When I think back to the past I realize that the failures I have endured have made me a stronger person.  So, I will say this and be done for the night.  "True success comes not from succeeding at be being the best. But recongnizing that failure was a necessary step to success."...TW